I'm back...

So I am going to do the best I can at keeping this post very unedited as I think a genuine response is the least I could do for my absence.

I assume that most of you know that I am in my final year of high school, or at least I was until yesterday, and that means that I have been sitting my final exams over the past six weeks. As much as I could blame my whole social media absence on exams, that wouldn't be completely honest but I will probably talk about that later in this post. As for this post, I feel as though I needed to write about where I've been just to keep all of you up to date and for you to see where I am at the moment in terms of my blog and what I hope for the future.

The last few posts of mine were actually pre-written and so the last time I had written a blog post was probably in January and so I am a bit out of practice. As exam season was approaching at the start of the year, I knew where my priorities lied because as much as I love blogging, my education and doing the best to my ability was something I did not want to give up. Since about the end of January, the start of February I had started revising on a regular basis but it was not until March that I realized that my blog really did need to take a back seat. Anyway, fast forward a little bit, my proper exams started in May and I finish them yesterday so it has been a very long and intensive process, to say the least. 

In case you do want to know about my exams and how they went, to say it briefly, I am content with how they went only because I couldn't have worked any harder and so I know that whatever I get is a genuine representation of my education throughout high school. I can always talk about exams in more detail if that is something you want but I won't do it in this post just because I want to keep this post brief.

During exam season, especially when I was revising in the build-up to my first few weeks, I just stopped blogging, I spotted planning, taking pictures and writing altogether. Surprisingly, to start off with, I didn't miss blogging. I felt as though a break was needed and that exams would take over. For me, sometimes it was just nice not to think about social media or blogging as I find it to be quite an intensive process but that doesn't disguise the fact that I still love it. Anyways, it got to halfway through exams and I had a week off, throughout that week I kept having urges to write for my blog. Although I didn't, that 'wanting to blog' feeling is what made me realize that my break was coming to an end and that I did want to come back. I would be lying if I said I had never thought about leaving my blog because I have had it for three and a half years and people change and develop so that thought has always been there. However, that week off made me realize that I really did still want to blog because as much as I needed that break, I also felt like I needed to come back as soon as I felt ready.

Saying that there are some things I want to change. Looking back, I feel like one of the reasons I didn't want to blog was because I wasn't fully into what I was writing about. I love makeup and it will always be something I will want to share, but it started to feel like a chore, weekly reviews and pouring my heart and soul into a tutorial that looking back, I feel as though a lot of people didn't actually read, so I do want to change up my blog a bit. I want to keep my blog as something that is true to myself and something that represents me and everything I love, and although makeup is still a big part of that, I only want to post about it when I really really want to. As well as makeup, I also love fashion. In case you didn't know, I am actually studying fashion next year as my form of education for two years and so I want to share that side of me also on my blog. I have tried fashion before but it always started drifting away because of little things like pictures and actually writing about it. This time though, I really want to experiment and I want to stick to it. I understand that some of my readers might not like fashion or other topics I want to cover on my blog but since that start of the year, I have just realised that I am going to do this blog for myself and I am going to block out the numbers and stats as well as I can because sometimes it is disheartening to see a post you loved to create but for me, this is still a hobby and I want to like what I create.

Anyway, if you have read all of this then I am definitely impressed and I thank you for sticking with me, it really does mean a lot to me. Hopefully, you are excited for what is to come and that you accept my decision and hopefully there will be a post from me soon. I don't really know what it's going to be, but we will see.

Thank you!

Grace xx